So here we are two crazy fools standing on the edge of a cliff about to jump into the unknown with very little but the safety net of the Lord to catch us. After our chemical pregnancy in September, we are back and ready to transfer our final two embryos. We really really need your prayers!
I have done an excellent job of emotionally ignoring the fact that this is really happening...well up until probably this week. Financially this has been a very strange year...one filled with many blessings, but also one filled with WAYYYYY more medical bills than we ever expected. This year, between my gallbladder surgery and our last and our upcoming embryo transfers, we will have spent $11,000 on medical bills (insert big gulp here)!!!
This year we also settled into our new house, needed a new air conditioning unit for the house, AND had several thousand dollars worth of unexpected car repairs (insert another big gulp here). I feel like maybe there could be a line in the Living on a Prayer song by Bon Jovi about us "Jamie works on the taxes all dayyyy...(insert non-descript singing of crazy person) ...cause we gotta hold on to what we got. It doesn't make a difference if we make it or not. We got each other and that a lot for love.....WE'LL GIVE IT A SHOT."
Okay that was fun. You gotta laugh to keep from crying right? Anyways, we are very blessed to have had the money to pay our bills (VERY VERY BLESSED), but at this point I feel like we are standing looking over the cliff without a financial safety net anymore and just praying for God to get us through and give us more babies. I hope that this doesn't sound like complaining, but it is a very real part of our story right now.
In October, I went in for an endometrial biopsy, which is this super fun procedure (just kidding) were they basically scrape around the inside of your uterus with a straw. Yeah...I know gross. Thankfully, my results came back normal, which means that my uterus isn't attacking our embryos (yay!). The procedure also spurs on new uterine lining that increases chances of our next embryos implanting .
On Monday, of this week I went in for an ultrasound to make sure that my body is ready for the transfer and everything looked good (another yay!). I brought Molly with me this time and she made a friend in the waiting room, which was so cute! See the snapshot that I caught of the two of them hugging.
This year we also settled into our new house, needed a new air conditioning unit for the house, AND had several thousand dollars worth of unexpected car repairs (insert another big gulp here). I feel like maybe there could be a line in the Living on a Prayer song by Bon Jovi about us "Jamie works on the taxes all dayyyy...(insert non-descript singing of crazy person) ...cause we gotta hold on to what we got. It doesn't make a difference if we make it or not. We got each other and that a lot for love.....WE'LL GIVE IT A SHOT."
Okay that was fun. You gotta laugh to keep from crying right? Anyways, we are very blessed to have had the money to pay our bills (VERY VERY BLESSED), but at this point I feel like we are standing looking over the cliff without a financial safety net anymore and just praying for God to get us through and give us more babies. I hope that this doesn't sound like complaining, but it is a very real part of our story right now.
In October, I went in for an endometrial biopsy, which is this super fun procedure (just kidding) were they basically scrape around the inside of your uterus with a straw. Yeah...I know gross. Thankfully, my results came back normal, which means that my uterus isn't attacking our embryos (yay!). The procedure also spurs on new uterine lining that increases chances of our next embryos implanting .
On Monday, of this week I went in for an ultrasound to make sure that my body is ready for the transfer and everything looked good (another yay!). I brought Molly with me this time and she made a friend in the waiting room, which was so cute! See the snapshot that I caught of the two of them hugging.
As I mentioned I have done a really great job of practically ignoring the scary cliff up ahead. Then several things this week just caused me to really wake up...one of which was our bank account, or lack thereof, and the second is just thinking about twins. If money wasn't a factor, I probably would transfer only one embryo at a time, but at this point it is a factor and the doctor recommended we transfer both of our last embryos, so that is what we are doing. There are lots of exciting things about twins, but I just feel extra nervous because we miscarried Molly's twin and I think I am more aware of the complications that can happen with twins.
This brings me to prayer...we really need your prayers! Prayers that this will work! Prayers that God will provide for us through the next few very lean months. Prayers that we will not just get pregnant, but that God would bless us with a healthy pregnancy and a healthy child or children.
So thankful to have such a wonderful community of friends, a blog where I can share our struggles, a church that loves on us, and an amazing God who is knitting together the next chapter of our family's infertility story.
"Now to him who is able to do immeasurable more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us,..." - Ephesians 3:20
